Traveling to Asia Beneath a Cerulean Blue Sky
“Let us walk together beneath a sky that is vast enough, brilliant enough, beautiful enough to welcome it all.”
On an early spring day, beneath a cerulean blue Colorado sky, I hike to the top of a hill on a dirt trail. Earlier that morning my mind had been full of heaviness but after climbing, I feel a calm presence awaken within me. My eyes soften as I sip in the teeming swell of the still snowy Rocky Mountains. My heart blooms with gratitude as I bring awareness to my body and all she is now capable of.
From this higher perspective, I am met with a memory from a medicine journey six months ago where I had asked for a bigger life. After identifying for so long as sick and in pain, I was ready to expand, to grow, to reclaim my life. I wanted to hike, to dance, to find partnership, to travel, and be of greater service.
Yet, often I fear what I most want. For when I tune in with my desires, I also meet the parts of myself that want to cling on to what is known and what feels safe, even if it causes more suffering.
In the ceremony, I connected with the little girl within me. The one who wants to stay small and safe. I held her hand and let her know she was welcome to come with me wherever I went. That her fears and her sensitivity would be honored rather than condemned. That I would meet her with a love that is unconditional.
Tomorrow, I leave for a month long trip to Asia. I travel with my partner to Japan to catch the spring cherry blossoms, soak in onsens and explore the many Buddhist temples and shrines. We end our travels in Singapore where I will meet a dear friend and her family.
A year ago as I battled with insomnia, pain and fatigue, a trip like this would have felt inconceivable. Yet even today, there are still swells of fear and uncertainty. There is still the little girl within who wants to stay small and safe in her cocoon.
And there is also the cerulean blue sky of potential and possibility. There is curiosity and courage brimming within my heart. There is excitement at the opportunity to explore another culture and land different from my own.
So as I take this next step, I hold the hand of my little girl and say:
“Let us walk together beneath a sky that is vast enough, brilliant enough, beautiful enough to welcome it all."